1st Day of School

Today was the first day of school. Sabine's 2nd year and Sarah's 1st year. They were both really excited, as was I. Last night I was in the kitchen putzing around while the girls ate some dinner and I all of a sudden got anxious/excited/sad about them starting school. So I said "Ah, I'm so excited for you guys to start school tomorrow!" And Sabine said back to me- "Mom, your just excited to get Sarah out of the house." And she said it with a sideways glance and a voice that let me know she knew the real reason for my excitement. I stood corrected. And she was right, actually. I was excited to get Sarah out of the house (she needs the social interaction) but now I'm just sad. It's quiet around here. I'm not bored but I feel empty. I feel like I'm missing an arm or something. I held back all the crying I felt like doing this morning because once I start I don't stop. I emptied the dishwasher this morning without being interrupted to cut up an apple or pour some milk or wipe a bum. It was nice. But I can't wait to go get them and hear about their first day back. It's going to be a good year!